i thought, it will be one of my last days on earth when i experienced chest pain. haha. yeah. what i experienced is indeed very different from ordianry signs and symptoms of asthma where i usually hyperventilate and experiences shortness of breath. it's my cardio that needs to be attended this time. i hate the way summer starts. the immediate shifting of environmental temperature and all. it affects my health status and my being. siguro, i need not to blame the environmental factor alone. i also received a handful of stress plus anger feelings where it increases my risk of having it again. i remember, it was the same month last year when i felt the same feeling. a feeling like dying. nasabi ko tuloy, "Lord, don't get me yet. i am not yet ready. 1 year na lang makakatapos na ako. hayaan niyo namang makatulong at mapasaya ko ang mga magulang ko". i am always living my day as if it's my last. but that moment changed it. i don't wanna die yet. i don't blame anyone why my health condition isn't that fair enough. i am a gifted child, in spite of everything, still i aam here, safe and sound. laughing. smiling. crying. studying. living normal. i constantly thank someone i do not know if existing (God) for making me feel so much blessed.
Isn’t it stupid that we allow a person whom we barely know and whom we just met to destroy the fruits of our past and to dictate our future by investing all our emotions in the belief that he/she can provide the happiness that we would need to last our lifetime? Isn’t it amazing how society can make us believe that we can leave the very people who have molded us into who we are just for this certain “special someone”? Isn’t it ironic how almost everyone subject themselves to emotional anxiety and pains in search of what they call ‘LOVE’, when in fact, nobody can even provide a single (and universally accepted) definition of this word, when nobody can guarantee an end when the journey begins? It only hurts when I’m awake. In my dreams you love me more. You let me hold you for as long as I want to and you never let go or back away from me. You let me kiss you in public no matter how passionate or sensual that kiss may be. You listen to everything I have to say even if they don’t mean j...
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