The [Whereabouts]

everything happen in its own time. i am not supposed to be online and make myself busy today blogging but i've got this very good story to share that happened to me few hours ago. Today, the Lord taught me patience. not just once but several times. I and Angel decided to leave our friends at Drew's located in Katipunan at exactly 12:15 in the morning. To go back home (in Bulacan), I decided to take a Cabanatuan route since Baliuag terminal route offer their last trip at early 10:00 in the evening. Since there is an aftermath from drinking alcohols, i decided to sleep while on my way home. While sleeping, i don't have any idea that i am starting to get in to trouble. This is the very first time that an incident like this happened to me. The bus assistant tapped my shoulder and asked where I will be going. I responded Pulilan po. The bus assistant was shocked and told me naku boy lagpas ka na. malayo na to . With what he told, i got totally awaken. I was like wtf! where am i?...

the greatest sign of stupidity in this world is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting for another outcome and i realized i'm STUPID. yeah. as BIG as STUPID. I keep on pressing myself so hard but not doing something new. Now I know why I grow less. why i keep on receiving higher pressure. that's because i never tried to release it. I never tried.

Have you ever had the feeling that you only live in a house and not in a home? House- a structure made of either wood, gravel and sand, cement, irons, or combinations in which people live; a residence for human beings that provides one of the basic physiologic need - protection from endeavors. Home - a house lived by family filled with love and affection living with pleasant connotations and provides two of Abraham Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs - Safety and security, and Love and Belongingness . For almost a month now, I really feel homeless. Yes, I may have family but I don't really feel I belong. I apologize but I don't really mean to feel this way (who else does?). The habitation is calm and yet I simply find it hard to come across with tranquility. At the moment, I already have the idea of giving up everything. Maybe it's about time to give something little for myself. When I sacrificed my identity, I left nothing for myself except only the feeling of expectation that...

MIXED SITUATIONS: Depression Sending myself to school wasn’t really easy. In most cases, ordinary students doesn’t really understand the situation how it feels budgeting the money til nothing is left in your pocket. Not even a single penny. I send myself to school by choice. It is my decision since I got so much bothered about the feeling of being a failure to their expectations. Mahirap pala magpaaral. Akala ko ganun ganun lang. Ngayon, sa halos dalawang taon na pagsusuporta ko sa sarili ko, sa baon, matrikula, at kung anu-anong gastusin, naubos na ang savings ko. Akala ko ganoon lang kadali. Nanghihinayang tuloy ako sa mga panahon na kumikita ako pero kung san san ko lang dinadala ang pera. Bili dito, bili doon. Di ko lang man narealize kung ano ang value ng pera. Madali kasi pumapasok pera sa akin noon. Nagawa ko pa nga sagutin ung tuition ng classmate ko para sa isang semester dahil nakikita ko ung galling at determinasyon nya. Ngayon, wala na sya. Sayang matalino pa naman. An...

And so I was in hiatus for how many days. Yeah I’m not a regular poster but I do use YMessenger and YMail everyday. I don’t have a very good internet connection for the past 14 days and counting and I’m hella freaking in here right now. Smartbro is hell! I swear! Intermittent connection for 2 weeks, how was that? God! Haven’t talked seriously to anyone along YMessenger. And it’s hard because I don’t have any personal updates with the other bloggers. I missed the night conferences (though I know it’s been rare since school year started), I missed the WIKA Conference too because of a very bad connection. I know I missed a lot. I’m willing to make up on it. So what happened to me these past few days? Hmm…I watched two good movies with my pareng bespren using his brainy jazz. His treat. Haha. The two movies were damn great (Transformers and Die Hard 4.0) but the person I’m with is much greater. Hmm..At long last, I got some personal talks with him. I want to apologize for being late. H...

I was tagged again. this time by Vinci . Since I want to open myself to everyone (as some sort of knowing me better. LOL), i'll be answering his tag. So what's the tag all about? Instructions: Each player of this game starts with 6 weird things/facts about him/her. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things/facts as well as state the rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says you are tagged in their comments and tell them to read your blog. 1. I am an unwanted child. There are only two people who know this matter. One is my kumpare and the other is my best college buddy. My mom was in her last year in college in some premiere university in Manila when i was formed. My mom tried to abort me but it didn't happen. She consulted Dr. X about this matter and she wanted that doctor to do it. The doctor refused to do it and told my mom that if my mom don't wan...

My friend Carla introduced me some youtube videos and one of them is what I'm gonna share with you. While watching the film, only feeling of shock came. We all dream of a just and peaceful world but are we really doing something to make it happen? We are said to be the caretakers of this world as we are the highest living form of organism but we seem not to know what's included in the word "highest". We seem to lack understanding which is needed in most real life situation. One problem is not resolved by doing another problem like killing (as a thought of ending all problems). After watching this film, let us feel our worth and the others as well. The question left to me after watching this film is why do people do such thing. and how can they do such. This video is a sensitive one. If you are eating, pls. finish eating first before choosing to play this video. This is a sort of documentary taken in Indonesia. Let us do something. We can make this world a better one. ...

June 15, 2007, 08:30PM, it's official. I'm one year single. Cheers to everyone. haha. LOL. I'm happy. Not because no "special" someone cares for me but I've known my priorities in life and i find more time to know myself more than before and i find time to assess as well. I'm blessed to have my family and few friends with me. it's enough for me. Am I that skinny? I eat more than 3 times a day and more than I should. But then, why do i still look anorexic? It's early Monday morning and I decided to eat alone in the kitchen. They are still sleeping that's why. While I was eating, I came to think of marriage. No, not marriage actually. i was actually thinking about what I know about Primary Complex when suddenly the thought of marriage arise. I should marry someone completely healthy. No. Not only her.but also her family must have no trace of hereditary diseases. It's a problem for me actually. I don't wanna think that way but if I really ...

sampung araw na pala ang nakakalipas mula ng iwan mo ako. eto, nag-iisa. marami na rin ang nagbago. Bugok na ako. Luko luko. parang sira. Umaabsent na rin ako ng walang dahilan may may ipresent akong case report. kapag nawala naman ako sa mood nagcucutting classes na rin ako. Sinubukan kong aliwin ang sarili ko pero di pa rin kita makalimutan. mahal pa rin pala kita. Nakakalungkot pa ring isipin na kelangang umabot sa ganito ang lahat. Akala ko magiging madali lang ang lahat. Di pala. Akala ko ikaw na ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. Kagabi nagtext ka. Nagulat ako. Sabi ko, "Hey, how's life going?" nakakalungkot isipin kung bakit ang gara ng sagot mo. Bakit naman kinailangan pang ganun ang isagot mo. pwede namang walang ganun. Sana niloko mo na lang ako sa sagot mo para naman kahit papano gumaan lang naman ang loob ko. siguro nga talagang ganun. Nagawa ko pa rin magreply pero sa sagot mo mas lalong nawasak ang puso ko. Nakakamatay pala ang selos. Di na ako nagrep...