The [Whereabouts]

i always feel loved pero parang may kulang. kanina nasa mall ako, nilibre ko ang sarili ko. labentayms eh. kumain ako sa brother's burger. medyo nahiya ako kasi isa lang ako sa iilan na nag-iisa. di ko maikakaila naawa ako sa sarili ko. habang ang lahat ng nasa paligid ko ay mahihigpit na magkakayakap o kung hindi naman ay kuntento na sa holding hands, ang ilan naman, masarap na naghahalikan, ako mag-isa, walang kausap. masaya naman ako na mag-isa. sa 2 dekada ko dito sa mundo, mas pinili kong mapag-isa at hindi naman ako nakaramdam ng hirap. ewan ko ba, bigla ako nakaramdam ngbiglang pananabik. ano nga ba ang pakiramdam ng may kayakap o kaholding hands na iba bukod sa mga kaclose na kaibigan? o kaya naman ay yung pakiramdam na may hinahalikan tuwing uuwi ka bukod sa nakababatang kapatid at magulang? ano nga kaya? kahit nga yung feeling ng manligaw di ko alam, yung ganun pa kaya. hindi naman ako manhid. medyo marami nga lang siguro akong mas prayoridad kaysa sa pansariling pag-ibig...

My friend Carla introduced me some youtube videos and one of them is what I'm gonna share with you. While watching the film, only feeling of shock came. We all dream of a just and peaceful world but are we really doing something to make it happen? We are said to be the caretakers of this world as we are the highest living form of organism but we seem not to know what's included in the word "highest". We seem to lack understanding which is needed in most real life situation. One problem is not resolved by doing another problem like killing (as a thought of ending all problems). After watching this film, let us feel our worth and the others as well. The question left to me after watching this film is why do people do such thing. and how can they do such. This video is a sensitive one. If you are eating, pls. finish eating first before choosing to play this video. This is a sort of documentary taken in Indonesia. Let us do something. We can make this world a better one. ...

perhaps, this is one of my loneliest valentine ever in my mature life. ewan ko ba. i dunno. i have survived before without having "special" someone. but now, i find it hard. maybe, the fact that i have undergone to several relationships before then having no one suddenly. haha. this entry has nothing to do with "special" someone tha is only yours. haha. i just can't think of a much better introduction since hours from now, roses and the rest of all the flowers in the world will start to fall because it's Valentine's Day. After having lunch at school cafeteria a while ago, i decided to accompany my friend in our training hospital. she's going to submit her case study at pediatrics department. i decided to went to the treatment room to check my other schoolmates in making their plan of care to the patients where they were assigned. i looked at respiratory ward where i ws assigned two weeks ago before moving to surgery department. Actually, my duty that...

when do you know you are already in love? and when do you know that it's only friendship that the other side can offer? here are the questions of life i always ask to myself and perhaps you too keep on aking. A friend sent a GM (group msg) asking "pa'no mo sasabihin sa isang tao na mahal mo siya pero di siya iiwas sa iyo? (how can you tell to a person that you are inlove with him/her without that person moving away?). here is my answer: parting from you is a consequence of the reality game called love. there should be always timing. love can wait. there is always right time. you don't have to hurry so you dont have to worry. haha. corny one. in friendship especially in my situation, it is very easy for me to develop my feelings to a girl when we started to get close. then teasing follows. it aches ten times more that she is telling you about her boyfriend. i got this happy feeling when my friend told me the she and her boyfriend get separated. alas i can have my move. ...

sampung araw na pala ang nakakalipas mula ng iwan mo ako. eto, nag-iisa. marami na rin ang nagbago. Bugok na ako. Luko luko. parang sira. Umaabsent na rin ako ng walang dahilan may may ipresent akong case report. kapag nawala naman ako sa mood nagcucutting classes na rin ako. Sinubukan kong aliwin ang sarili ko pero di pa rin kita makalimutan. mahal pa rin pala kita. Nakakalungkot pa ring isipin na kelangang umabot sa ganito ang lahat. Akala ko magiging madali lang ang lahat. Di pala. Akala ko ikaw na ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. Kagabi nagtext ka. Nagulat ako. Sabi ko, "Hey, how's life going?" nakakalungkot isipin kung bakit ang gara ng sagot mo. Bakit naman kinailangan pang ganun ang isagot mo. pwede namang walang ganun. Sana niloko mo na lang ako sa sagot mo para naman kahit papano gumaan lang naman ang loob ko. siguro nga talagang ganun. Nagawa ko pa rin magreply pero sa sagot mo mas lalong nawasak ang puso ko. Nakakamatay pala ang selos. Di na ako nagrep...

It's over now. I'm single again. Yesterday was really one of the baddest day. Ngayon kabilang na ako sa tropang singles (Now i belong to singles group). Pero bago ako magbunyi at magpakasaya para mapatunayang kaya ko ang mabuhay kahit wala ka eh gusto muna kitang pasalamatan (But before i try to celebrate and enjoy to prove that i can live even without you, i wanna thank you first) Sosyal, may translation pa no. haha. it's because my girlfriend is of some race and she doesn't understand Tagalog (Filipino) though they live here in my motherland - the Philippines. First i want to say thank you for the happy moments. and also for the bad moments too. I'll definitely miss the times we were together. I'll miss the times i stay in your house to sleep. I'll miss the nights i stay in your room and talk a lot of things at the wee hours of the night. I'll miss talking to someone in full english outside the school campus and over the phone. I'll miss your broth...

You truly never fail to amaze me. and captivate my heart in admiration. I love the profoundity of your face as it went blank. I love the way a small light flicker in your eyes for it reflects the inner you. I love the gracefullness of your moves for you're far more attractive than a fine leaf blown by a mild zephyr. I love your gait as if you're dancing in finest tune. I love your smiles for it bring too much joy in my heart. I love the way you emancipate your guffaws that make my day. I love the way you talk and your guts to open up your ideas. I love the way your skin turns rouge when striked by sun rays. Odd, but i love the way you sweat. I love the droplet of your sweat glides from your forehead to the bottom of your "perfectly" curved chin. I LOVE THE WAY YOU REGISTER IN MY EYES, for you meet my visions perfectly. I love your levity, your natural tendency to ease up things. I love the way you carry the whole you; so confident, full of esteem. I LOVE EVERY INCH O...