Hindi ko kasi alam. madalas naguguluhan na ako sa sarili ko. napabilis kong magalit, mainis, maaburido.
I do not know if my high school friends are still the people i know. A lot of things has changed. What I do not know is that if they still care about our friendship. I always try to keep in touch but they seem to be moving away. I don't have any updates with them because they refuse to share. I always contact them to set some meet ups during vacation or special holidays but they always have a lot of reasons. "Kapag ayaw, maraming dahilan." and I'm getting tired. I feel so rejected and I'm so degraded. Then everytime someone contact me and set some meet up, even if i have classes, overnight project, i will leave everything just for them. Then here's my bestfriend for five years who jut left me and traded me for a boyfriend. Her boyfriend didn't asked her to leave me but she did. Do you know the feeling? It hurts so much. Why do people have to leave me that way? I've never done anything like that in the past. Are these people getting tired of me?
I'll be fooling the people around me if I say I find it easy to move on after a failed relationship.
Have I been that good in a relationship? I do not know what's wrong with me anymore. In the last relationship, we kept an open communication with one another but still I was fooled. Third party. What's so wrong with me? Pls. tell me. Now, there's this another girl who love me and I love as well but I'm afraid to try again. I don't wan't wanna get hurt. LOVE DOESN'T REALLY HAVE TO HURT. I told her to wait because I want to share my life when I already know myself. When I already know what I'm searching for. The person we hardly get to know is not around. It's in us. OURSELVES. I mean it when I asked her to wait. Now, if she didn't take it like what I did, it's ok. I can't send her all the blame because it's not easy to wait. Now, she's with someone I guess. Back with her old Aaron. awts. Not me, but another Aaron. What makes me feel sad id that I don't hold the time. neither do i own the world. I can't fight because now isn't the time. We really don't have to hurry on things. They will come at the right time. The most unexpected time. If I'm hurting her because I asked her to wait some long years, my deepest apology.
She sent an sms saying, "Don't say you love someone unless you mean it. Because they might do something crazy...like...believing it."