The [Whereabouts]

From the unstoppable heat of boiling water, pieces just got frozen. Odd as it may seem but overheating can also make something even harder. It was late when I started to get clues. It was too late when I realized that reality has finished undressing me to witness the foolish naked body. Hypnotized. Mental Disorder. Disturbed. Manipulated. Those are words that sinked after waking up from a deadly nightmare that keeps haunting me. They weren't just a nightmare. They were real. And now that i see a key solution, will I be able to solve the puzzle that no legendary man has succeeded? Well, I am very hopeful to that.

before the year ends, i want to introduce a very good friend to the people who doesn't know much about my college friends (of course I know my good friends want me to be in good influence =P ). We didn't had a good start. I was new to the class and didn't socialize that much. I first got the chance to have talked to him face to face when he damaged my DVD player which was supposed to be used in the film showing our group has to present. It was followed by some not so good events due to his insensitive attitude. And so who would have thought we'll be this close now? It was also a question to me. Perhaps an answered prayer. I got to know the better side of him when we got the chance to talk more often. when we became group mates last June. the time when attachment to my bes, Celine, cannot be as attached as we want to be. Going back, we had some personal talks and ramblings about life, personal beliefs and all the type of topic you can think of. He began to be a good budd...

Ignite the fire that will keep you from studying til the NLE. Use the thought that "we are still morons!" as your match and igniter. Let any drive be your fuel! Thanks Lambert, my very good friend for the very nice reminder. That will be very useful for me. We are so near yet so far to getting our Bachelor's degree. I just can't wait for the product of all our hardworks and all the sleepless nights. I am very hopeful that it will be a positive one. It was never easy going to where we are right now. It never was. I'll surely miss the days.

the greatest sign of stupidity in this world is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting for another outcome and i realized i'm STUPID. yeah. as BIG as STUPID. I keep on pressing myself so hard but not doing something new. Now I know why I grow less. why i keep on receiving higher pressure. that's because i never tried to release it. I never tried.

I still remember when i was a child, I always have this wanting to be in such a dreamland. To be there is like a frustration. I always thinks living in such a place is like heaven where you can buy anything you want. seeing them happy, i'm becoming more and more determined. I didn't stop pushing through to that dream. But upon growing, I started to realize that success and happiness can't be together. When I was still far to that dreamland, when it was only a dream, we were so happy, life was so fulfilling. Each day is so worthwhile. And to my thought of adding more happiness, i didn't stop. And now that I am near, happiness, where are you? Now that a dream can be a part of my reality, why did you left me so alone? Happiness, where are you? Can you take me back to where we used to be? To a life far away from the dreamland? Would that still be possible?