Saturday, August 25, 2007
why do all good things have to end?
Funny how my life turned so miserable. all were sudden. i never expected my life to go on and be like this. ever since, i have been so sacrificial and it's ok with me for i know that soon these sacrifices will bear its own fruits. but i was wrong. definitely wrong, They say, you can't have all. yeah, true. but it's only i ask and yet not given. now what are these sacrifices for when all that i have to dedicate is just for nothing and for no one now. For my almost 20 years of existence, i have been a very good son, a good brother, a good friend, and a good stranger. yet, and yet, almost everybody just leave me. all they asked, i did. yet, they didn't feel happy and satisfied. now, who says that i need to be strong? i just can't be now. haha. the people who pushes me to be strong are now gone. i realized smiling all day, laughing at crankiest jokes were never real. wearing smile is just really to hide the deep sorrows. they always say to practice excessive happiness at all times but how could i? how could i if fate says me not to be. just like the song, i did my best but i guess my best wasn't good enough. now, who will still be there for me if i have nothing to be proud of now? who, if all the weight is now right on my shoulder?