The [Whereabouts]

This entry is divided into three different categories (just in case you're confused about the relevance of each parts to one another). Upon Review Reviewing as part of preparation for examinations, quizzes, or whatsoever to get good remarks was never really my part for it will spoil what I have learned by myself or from the lectures given by any professors. I only review if what i am into is a research or a proposal stuff because i have to present it at its best. I am not a grade-conscious person, really. An individual's competency can't be observed completely on how neat the transcript of record or how high your remarks in licensure examination was. Yes, intellectual capacity of each individual matters but applying what you have learned in the clinical setting therapeutically is the one that really matters. All individuals can apply what was instructed to him but doing it therapeutically is what is paid and appreciated by most people. Anyway, I was supposed to have my per...

Funny how my life turned so miserable. all were sudden. i never expected my life to go on and be like this. ever since, i have been so sacrificial and it's ok with me for i know that soon these sacrifices will bear its own fruits. but i was wrong. definitely wrong, They say, you can't have all. yeah, true. but it's only i ask and yet not given. now what are these sacrifices for when all that i have to dedicate is just for nothing and for no one now. For my almost 20 years of existence, i have been a very good son, a good brother, a good friend, and a good stranger. yet, and yet, almost everybody just leave me. all they asked, i did. yet, they didn't feel happy and satisfied. now, who says that i need to be strong? i just can't be now. haha. the people who pushes me to be strong are now gone. i realized smiling all day, laughing at crankiest jokes were never real. wearing smile is just really to hide the deep sorrows. they always say to practice excessive happiness ...

Hi! I apologize if lately, i am so senseless, and most of the time out of my mind. in the previous entries, i apologize if except my entry for Wika 2007, the rest of the entries are nothing but a waste of time to read. i am sorry if i was not able to cheer up everyone and give some inspirational taglines to keep motivated and determined in life. At the moment, your friend is in search of answers. He thought all the while that he is one of the strongest person who won't let anyone see him crying. He also have thought that being a provider of his needs, he must pursue and work hard for everything especially now his dreams are coming and his objectives for his dreams are soon to be met right after he finished his studies. but suddenly his world has to stop for everything is breaking down into pieces while everyone's world has to continue moving on. it's just sad that in reality, broken pieces cannot be glued just to bring back the pieces together. Like in all signs that are d...

i was browsing the net when accidentally i found this picture. Credits to Hilliardhome for this picture.

Maraming wika, biyaya ng kabihasnan, sangkap-Pinoy na namumukod tangi. Iba’t ibang panulat at pananalita, pinagbuklod ng iisang kultura, damdamin at mithiing para sa kapwa at sa Inang bansa. ABAKADA- iyan ang isa sa mga salita na una kong natutunan noong nagsisimula pa lamang akong mag-aral. Sa katunayan, isang popular na libro ang naging una kong guro, ang dilaw na libro ng abakada. Sa aking paglaki, unti-unti akong namulat sa iba pang wikang umusbong at yumabong sa Pilipinas. Dati rati, sa aking murang pag-iisip, nag-iisa lamang ang itinatangi kong Abakada, na wala nang iba pang wika ang nag-ugat, nagka-ugat, maririnig at mababasa sa ating bansa kundi ang Abakada. Laking gulat ko nang malaman kong humigit sa 100 ang wika natin sa bansa. Naitanong ko tuloy sa aking sarili, “Ano naman ang magandang maidudulot nito sa aming bansa? Hindi ba’t mas magulo at mahirap magkainitindihan kapag napakarami nating wikang ginagamit at naririnig?” Dumaan ang mga araw, napilas na ang mga buwa...

if you really exist, pls let me feel you now. nothing is left with me. nothing to be proud of. i am now on my wits end. do you hear me? do you feel the pain i'm in to now? I have been very good yet i'm receiving all these. Now, if you really do exist, pls, let me feel you and never leave me again. pls. pls. this is not just a request or a simple favor. i'm commanding you. let me feel you. now pls. let me feel you. let me feel you

August 12, 2007, Thank you bestfriend for keeping me company this day. please remind me of this day when i already seem to forget what i want to do in life. thanks, really. i badly need one.

i just feel so alone. my dreams are going nowhere. inspirations were lost. suddenly, i realized, i'm also losing grip i will do everything just to bring back the pieces but doing everything is still wasn't enough. I don't want to think of tomorrow but everytime i try to be conscious of time, i'm just realizing the most feared day. the most feared day is coming nearer and nearer. It's hard. it's all i wish but then not given. Haha. i'm getting insane. i'm getting tired. getting tired of everything. Happiness? How does it feel? i forgot the feeling...

For the past few weeks, I remained quiet, silent. For others who might know, my stay in Bataan wasn’t really that fun. I feel guilty about what I felt and I really believe I have told this to my bestfriend. The thought of quitting nursing came into my mind. It is not because I am far from home. That I am away from the city. Nor that I am way from my friends. It’s also not because of the tiring duty and the full of effort just to produce a therapeutic nurse-patient interaction or even the sleepless nights. It was all because of my partner. I’m used to keeping myself awake at the wee hours of the night doing school stuff and bugging everyone awake. It’s no big deal with me. Yeah, the ton of requirements to pass is a factor why I hated my stay there. The requirements to pass wouldn’t be as heavy as I felt if only my partner was sensitive enough to feel she is already acting like she is the chief nurse of the mental institution and I as a partner is acting like a personnel who is asked t...